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Friday, August 15, 2008


thinking..worried..

I went to sign contract with holiday inn parkview today, actually since the day i got reinstated, there's this 2 feeling inside mi.. Happy and worried.

1stly, i'm happy that i can go back to attachment, i can defer NS and i can pei baby more. I dun really have much things to write abt happy..

2ndly, i'm worried that the coming test. not the referral, but the test between baby and mi. Some ppl may think that this is stupid but to me i dun think so..

ppl asked me "wad if ur gf like someone when ur in the army or when ur in the attachment?"

my normal answer will be.. "den too bad lor..find new one lor." although i can easily tell everyone that, but i lied..i can't.

i can't let go of all these..i can't take it..i said those things is cuz i dun wan anyone to think tat i'm a wuss..

deep down inside, i've always living in fear ever since i received news tat i was gonna get reinstated.

Fear of we can't pass this test..fear that we can't last..fear of everything..baby is always attracting other guys..as in there's always someone there to hong her..hais..

worried that baby dunno how to take care of herself, worried that baby will be bored. dun really wanna leave baby alone. =(

how i wish i can take a lock and lock her up forever..so that i wun b apart with her..i've put in 101% into this relationship..i onli ask for a simple thing..to b with baby happily forever, just like those in fairy tale where prince and princess live happily ever after.

PS: hope baby get to read about this entry..there's still alot of feelings that i still can't find words to express to u baby. you're the perfect girl of my life..my only perfect one..i never ever had this fear before..this is the 1st time..baby ba wo cong huai le..makes mi can't let go of u..muacks. x33

my LOVE for YOU never FADES. This is for YOU My LOVE x33
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